Chuga Chuga

I'm slowly, but surely getting back on track. I overate a bit today, but not horribly. I didn't exercise either, but I will tomorrow.

I ran into a neighbor who said how wonderful I look and that I'm doing great at keeping the weight off. I told her it is really hard and I've been having a tough time lately. She said that she wishes her daughter would do something to lose the weight. I was really kind of embarrassed that she would say that and kind of feel sorry for her daughter. Yes, we all wish our family members could be thin and healthy, but her daughter has to do it for herself, not because her mother keeps at her. If anything she's going to be more likely to overeat because her mother sees her as fat. I think it is kind of shameful.

I've had these talks with my mom or my b/f. My mom just wants me to be healthy and knows I've struggled with weight all my life and I was bullied because of it, but she never ragged me on it. My b/f knew me when I was heavy, but we didn't start dating until I lost some weight. But it wasn't because I was starting to lose weight that we started dating. He never comments on what I eat, except for the fact that he sometimes thinks there is not enough of it or that I'm a vegetarian. My entire family is supportive.

Though I do wonder sometimes that if I gain the weight back...how would my life change from what it is now?