it's been awhile. Things have been a little hectic. Personal issues and well...every issue you can imagine and more, I'm going through. Life is complicated. I find that when I can't control my life, I want to control food even more. And because I'm stressed and depressed, I'm not controlling my food. Now it's getting better. First I was going through the "I don't want to eat" stage where I ate very little, just enough to stay conscious, then I went through the "I want to everything I can" stage where I overate and then some. I'm finally getting back on track. I haven't tracked much, but I'm working on it. But I'm running and I'm eating and I'm cooking and baking. I'm not working much which is again stressful in itself, but again, I can't control that right now. I can control what I eat. When I eat right, I feel better. I haven't been obsessed with cheese whiz the last couple of days (it's a comfort food, sue me). Is it a good thing when you want to control food so much? When you feel like you can't control the rest of your life, so you control the one thing that you can. Food. But...I'm eating and eating healthy so it is good?
On another note, I'm make a documentary. Or starting plans for one about food/fast food. So if anyone reads this, which I doubt, send me any questions, comments, concerns, myths about food and maybe it'll end up in the documentary/podcasts.
Till next we eat,
K
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